Staring Our Way to Recognition

Have you ever seen something that you could not identify as anything familiar, and so all you could do was stare at it in a rather stupid way? When I was a teenager I once saw an apparition while walking at night on a country road. It looked as if someone in a white robe was floating above the soybean field. My friend and I could only look and look and try to make something in our brains connect with what our eyes were seeing. I was not one to see ghosts or other mysterious phenomena, and I didn’t know whether to be terrified or fascinated. Then a car went past us, and the changing angle of the headlights revealed our apparition to be a diamond-shaped sign posted in the field. It was a relief to be able to give a name to what we saw.

 

I’m guessing that the disciples who saw the risen Jesus stared stupidly for awhile. In a very short time they had to reconcile newly revealed truth with all their experience up to that point. And when you think of all the other people of the Bible who were given visions, the pattern is clear: at first they did not know what they were seeing. In addition to being really frightened, they were confused and speechless.

 

I think this is the typical pattern of human behavior when God becomes visible. The love or glory or wisdom that we see does not compute. We don’t even have a name for the sensation or experience. All we can do is stare. Sometimes we stare for days or weeks or months, as holy love plays out right in front of us. Surely it can’t be true! There must be another explanation for what is happening—a fluke of good luck, or a misinterpretation of the facts. It couldn’t be as simple as God reaching into our lives and touching our souls, making us alive and joyful and unafraid.

 

But I’ve learned something about staring. After awhile, the patterns do emerge, and things begin to make sense. And so you name the vision: grace, or peace, or understanding. Then, as the months and years go by, those gifts reappear, again and again. You come to understand that what at first was a strange apparition is actually your very reality. God is here, right in your life, working wonders.

 

So don’t be ashamed to stand there and stare with a clueless expression on your face—it’s all part of reconciling the revelation we call Good News with our quite limited experience and vocabulary. Stare until you recognize that what you are beholding is holy love—looking right back at you.

 

Your exercise for the week, should you choose to try it, comes in two parts.

 

First, identify “sightings” that have not come clear for you. They could be:

• Passages or stories from the Bible that are hard to understand
• People in your life whose presence is a mystery to you—the kind of people about whom you say, “Why do I have to work with this person?” or “Why in the world is this person in my family?” or “What am I supposed to do with this friendship?”
• Situations that have you dumbfounded, about which you say, “What could possibly be the purpose in this?”

 

Now choose one of those sightings and just stare at it this week. Look at it patiently and closely. And as you look, pray: “God, if your love or wisdom or comfort or instruction exists here, please help me see. Help me recognize how you are here.”

Comments

[Dianne]

Um, how did I miss this post? This is awesome. That's all I can say. I'm going to take this one home with me tonight ;)